Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts, it’s a pleasure to read!

Indeed, you’ve so poignantly noted that it resembles a dance between wishing to be personally sincere and grasping the situation from a wider angle. I’m naturally inclined to question and analyze my emotions, but doing this in a wider truthful way is something I have struggled with a lot.

Another nuance lies in the fact that some people will not understand you however earnest your attempts at establishing truthfulness.. this is painful, for it seems like no effort is good enough and in the end, you start evading open conversation as such.